Lord_Withrow

lord_withrow @ 2009-09-20T18:27:00

2009-09-21T02:30:58Z

I've been trying to create a story for so long now. I feel like I've lost sight of what writing originally meant to me. I used to love to write, for enjoyment. To get the voices in my mind to quit screaming at me to use my imagination and my ideas. Now, It just feels like another job. Whenever I write lately, I feel almost embrassed.

I want my ability to make some cry with my poetic words again. To bring light or life or joy or happiness to someone again, even if for only a little while.

Finally.

2009-09-18T00:51:00Z

I've finally found myself again.

I quit the lord for a while...I fell back into my roots. Into Druidism...and I liked it. But then something happended I did not intend. I felt the kiss of my angel. My own guardian angel, I named her Charity.

I feel like my hearts been torn in two, Like my soul is on the tip of a knife and if I stray in either direction, I will fall. But I don't want to fall. Part of me wishes religion was fake, all of it. But another part me recongizes the deeply spiritual part of me.

Lithium

2009-02-23T23:22:32Z

I wrote a song today, a real song with Piano also.

I don't play the piano, well, I play but i'm not trained professionaly. I just kinda taught myself how.

A little bit of weirdness.

2009-02-22T18:24:47Z

I decided I was going to post again and this time it's about a really odd dream.

i woke up in a bed covered in feather down and vomit and some chick with a Horrible New york accent like she learned out of a movie was laying next to me smoking a cigarette. I don't remember anything of the night before some I'm like 'what the...' and she tells me that last night we had met in a bar, got drunk, got married and then had sex. I remember none of this and then...I woke up.

Kind of odd. Yes, very odd.

Life down the rabbit hole.

2009-02-21T18:37:02Z

It's been forever since I've updated this. But I'm glad my friend is making me, I think it could be a good outlet. It's been over half a year since my brother passed.

But the numbness is gone, I can feel and dream again. My wounds are sealing, slowly, but they're sealing. Like pouring molten candle wax on a wound. It fixes it, but not without some pain.

I've been writing again, it's picked up dramatically and I really do think I'll be published soon. I've finished my third story now. none are related and each are in the way I've written them.

Becoming a Published Poet, has been the best experience of my life. Walking into Barnes and Noble and seeing the Book on display with my poem in the front of the book. The feeling is immaculate.

Being saved has helped me in more ways then anyone could ever imagine. I really can breathe with God's comforting hands on my shoulders.

I'm bummed though at the same time. I feel so...detached, Like I know God is there with me with every step but...I feel unloved. Like I'm not cherished by anyone but him. It makes me kinda sad that only the creator and lover of everything. Good or bad shows any affection towards me. I want to soar with the clouds and be loved, not crawl against the grain and be spurned by everyone but Our Lord.

I've been keeping a real journal for a while now. An ancient leather journal my brother left me. I call it my Book of Days. Everyday I see something new, something magnificent, and I like it.

Hopefully, I'll post tomorrow. Blessed Be everyone who reads this.

Happy Day

2008-06-05T01:26:00Z

I Have only one more day of school left. AHHHHHHHH I can smell the freedom. Although I will miss al my friends terribly. Like Bailey shes fun to hang out with. We have barely known each other yet we're attached at the hip. We always make up stuff for fun. Shes so random though that it's scary.

A Beautiful Lie

2008-05-26T05:08:56Z

We walked past the crowd
On the way to the room
A night to be proud
No more gloom

In the morning you were gone
You lied
Was this affair a con
I knew I had tried

This Beautiful Lie
Isnt so special anymore
I wondered how you would die
But then I realized that is God's Chore

Left behind

2008-05-19T16:14:11Z

They moved with the grace
Of a dying sea
As they left
They left me be

Please forgive me for you sorrow
For leaveing you in fear
It burns down to the marrow
Are you still here

Please I can't be left behind
I'm lost in the rain
Who knows what we'll find
Broken and Shattered in our pain

I'm torn between
My love
It was ripped apart at the seam
it was as pure as the life of a dove

Am I too lost (Gothic song from Divine Insperation)

2008-05-15T00:38:53Z

I Tried to kill the pain
But I only brought more
So much more

Forgive me my sins
Will they, Can they be justified
I think not

Am I too Lost My lord
Take me into your arms
please no more sorrow

I lay here pouring regret
Please dont let me die
Forgive me

Am I Too Lost my lord
Take me into your arms
Please No more sorrow

My light fades
As I'm left waiting for my execution
Tell them to stop

GOD SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!

Am I Too Lost My Lord
Take Me Into Your Arms
Please No More Sorrow

I Walk to the golden gates
My eyes fixed upon your glory
The darkness tried to ensnare me
But it is repelled

Chours X2

Amen

Darkness Given Hunger

2008-05-14T00:04:23Z

I ran and I ran
But it wasnt enough
I tuned down the alley

I heard a evil, laugh as I fell to the ground
A woman with flaming red hair walked up
Her eyes bright crimson with hunger

I cried out as she bit into my neck
"Please" I screamed
She laughed into the wound and drank my blood

She left me then
I was battered and broken
I was dying

I tried to pull myself away from the scene
But I couldnt move
I was paralyzed

A woman came to me then
"Who did this" She asked
"Darkness Given Hunger" Was all I answered before God took me home.

Writer's Block: Pick an era, any era

2008-05-13T02:17:44Z

If you had to pick a time period to live in, which would you choose? Why?

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The Last Crusade because christiany was very strong

Dear Diary

2008-05-13T02:11:27Z

Okay soooo I weas just walking down the street when a Monster bed spread attacked. I flipped out of the way like a ninja monkey and whelled over to the quilt of death. I slashed at it with my katana. But was repeled by its feathery softness. I Cut in half in one last blow. And I ran screaming down the street. More quilts attacked and I ran into my house to hind. I am currently under my bed cowering in fear, I write this in hope that I make it threw the night.

Help me lord

2008-05-08T00:19:55Z

I feel a darkness in mt life its here and its now and i need your help to overcome it I dont know what exactly it is though i feel like im empty like theres nothing worth living for anymore now i know its not true but i have my doubts My life is falling apart but so far ive known this and have tried to pull it back together and so gar its being help together with a few band-aids and some glue, I feel so empty like my soul isnt with me anymore like im under a raincloud and it wont stop pouring maybe its just my body changeing but i need help im stressed aswell and that never helps Im dont know what im supposed to do with my life i have NO idea how im going to pay for college in a few years and im going into high scholl and that REALLY scares me i need your love and guideing hand right now god please keep your arm over my shoulder and your hand over my mouth Amen

Writer's Block: It's Too Late to Apologize

2008-05-08T00:13:02Z

Has anyone ever done something so horrible to you that "I'm sorry" couldn't fix it?

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When My "Bill" purposely told my friend Amanda that I said shes should go commit suicide and told my friend maddy that Amanda said the same about her and he tole me Maddy said that to me so we all ended up hating eachother and when our Principle madelene made him tell what had really happend "Im really sorry guys" Didnt change a thing for me at least

Pale rain

2008-05-06T00:20:45Z

As I lay in the cold grass
The clouds toss and turn
It tears me apart
That I must let this go

The raindrops tell a story as they fall
A story of wandering and power
The story of the pale rain in your heart

It's never-fading
It's never-ending
Everything will slip away
Shattered pieices will remain

The forest blooms from it's touch
the earth strengthens
Our lives fall apart

The raindrops tell a story as they fall
A story of wandering and power
The story of Pale rain your heart

Pale rain
Pale rain
Pale rain
redeem me from the cage Im trapped
Save me

Writer's Block: Fictional Character

2008-05-05T00:40:16Z

What fictional character do you relate to most and why?

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OR Heathcliff from Wuthering Heights im pretty evil. Pretty caniveing Pretty selfish.

Writer's Block: Fictional Character

2008-05-05T00:36:45Z

What fictional character do you relate to most and why?

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Mina Harker Im odd, I talk differently, I always need saving from myself, I always fall for the people that will probably kill me in the end or at least out me though the worst pain there is. HAhahahahahahahahahaha thats sums it up haha

MOTHER FRICKER

2008-05-04T20:18:33Z

I was cutting a slice of coffee cake this morning with a sharp knife and I cut my hand and it hurts CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! any way i thought id write about it.

Twilight series quotes

2008-05-04T01:57:05Z

"All in a day's work" Bella swan

"You dont own anything like this for crying out loud you only own one skirt!!!" Alice Cullen

"I'll kill her" Edward Cullen

"Jasper's gonna win the bet" Rosalie Cullen

"Fall Again Bella" Emmet Cullen

"I wasnt going to sugest it" Jasper Cullen

Silver Roses (Song)

2008-05-04T01:51:31Z

As I watched you walk out my door
I cried to god for strength
Why would you leave me

(Chorus)
Only time can tell this tale
As it slipped away
Shattered Pieces will remain
On a Bed or Silver roses

You left me
To face the evil of reality
Is your heart of stone and ice
For this is my solemn hour

Chorus

The darkness of life
The purity of death'
Has you bound in its chains
Like a wasp in the web of thw widow

Chorus X2

The silver roses
Have floated away on the tides of existance
You are gone forever
My love, My life, My silver rose.

Sweetest Sin

2008-05-03T19:15:18Z

I tasted your beautific blood
The flavor of black wine
The knowledge of thy memories

You fought away the deadly desire
The lust of our embrace
And the power of our Astral Romance

The Light cascades around us
In a empty hateful caress
It wallows in our desire

Our sweetest sin.

Paralyzing Sorrow (Goth Free Verse)

2008-05-03T01:50:06Z

We are so young
Our lives have just begun
Yet you threw it all away

The bond as strong as Iron
Yet you let it be washed away by the tides of life
Please Don't leave me to brave the depths of reality

You wanted to stay in love with your sorrow
You fell in love with your sin
Come back to me in the darkness of our lives

Pale Roses adorn your grave
My gothic queen Come back to me
Leave your Black Sorrow for the birds

The sliceing of you wrists
Sent a wave of pain cascadeing threw me
A wave of Paralyzing Sorrow

My funniest most emberassing moments ever!!!

2008-05-01T00:13:15Z

When me and my friend had a fight and i whip around to leave and tripped over my own foot and did a Jessica Simpson Prat fall.

When i was out with friends at the RED ROCK casino and My favorite song ever (When your gone By Avril L avigne)
I was spinning around and I heard my friend yell stop but I ddint fast enough and my arm swung and Hit a entiire tray of drinks the one of the cocktail waitresses was holding so Booze went everywhere

Agasin at red rock with my parents I was walking and talking with My best-friend who we brought along i tripped and fell into the foutain and iT WAS sooo COLD

When I was at Starbucks I ordered a bunch of drinks for my family and they were sitting around and she gave me my order and it was in a carrier and i spun around really fast and all the drinks flew out and splahed all over me so i was dripping hot coffee OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

Writer's Block: Life Changing Experiences

2008-04-30T00:02:31Z

Name three life-changing experiences you went through and explain why you chose those experiences in particular.

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Most my Life-chnageing experiences are only Tennage because I'm only a Teenager but they are

1 falling in love because it made me realize that anyone can really be happy

2 Losing my Best-friend when she moved taught me that even though you can be thousand's of miles apart The bond can never be Broken

3 Being Saved made me realize that There's way more to life besides just drama and Classrooms like having fun and having friends its pretty nice hahaha

She Is My Sin-Nightwish Best song there is

2008-04-29T21:59:53Z

Take Heed, Dear Heart
Once apart, She can touch nor me nor you
Dressed as one
A Wolf will Betray a Lamb

Lead astray the gazers
Razors on your seducing skin
In the meadow of sinful thoughts
Every Flowers a perfect one

To Paradise with pleasure haunted
Haunted by fear

A sin for him
Desire within, Desire within
A burning veil
For the bride to dear for him
A sin for him
Desire within, Desire within
Fall in love with your deep dark sin

I am the fallen
You are what my sins enclose
Lust is not as creative
As it's discovery

To Paradise with Pleasure Haunted
Haunted by fear

A Sin for him
Desire within, Desire Within
A Burning veil
For the bride to dear for him
A Sin For him
Desire within, Desire within
Fall In love with your deep dark sin

Bless me, Undress me
Pick your prey in a wicked way
God I must Confess...I do envy the sinners

A Sin for him
Desire within, Desire within
A Burning veil
For the bride to dear for him
A Sin for him
Desire within, Desire within
Fall in love with your deep dark sins.