I want my ability to make some cry with my poetic words again. To bring light or life or joy or happiness to someone again, even if for only a little while.
- Location:The kitchen table
- Mood:
cold - Music:Fallen Angel - L'Ame Immortelle
I quit the lord for a while...I fell back into my roots. Into Druidism...and I liked it. But then something happended I did not intend. I felt the kiss of my angel. My own guardian angel, I named her Charity.
I feel like my hearts been torn in two, Like my soul is on the tip of a knife and if I stray in either direction, I will fall. But I don't want to fall. Part of me wishes religion was fake, all of it. But another part me recongizes the deeply spiritual part of me.
- Mood:
contemplative - Music:Address in the stars - Caitlin and Will
I don't play the piano, well, I play but i'm not trained professionaly. I just kinda taught myself how.
i woke up in a bed covered in feather down and vomit and some chick with a Horrible New york accent like she learned out of a movie was laying next to me smoking a cigarette. I don't remember anything of the night before some I'm like 'what the...' and she tells me that last night we had met in a bar, got drunk, got married and then had sex. I remember none of this and then...I woke up.
Kind of odd. Yes, very odd.
- Location:Desk
- Mood: contemplative
- Music:Microvave
But the numbness is gone, I can feel and dream again. My wounds are sealing, slowly, but they're sealing. Like pouring molten candle wax on a wound. It fixes it, but not without some pain.
I've been writing again, it's picked up dramatically and I really do think I'll be published soon. I've finished my third story now. none are related and each are in the way I've written them.
Becoming a Published Poet, has been the best experience of my life. Walking into Barnes and Noble and seeing the Book on display with my poem in the front of the book. The feeling is immaculate.
Being saved has helped me in more ways then anyone could ever imagine. I really can breathe with God's comforting hands on my shoulders.
I'm bummed though at the same time. I feel so...detached, Like I know God is there with me with every step but...I feel unloved. Like I'm not cherished by anyone but him. It makes me kinda sad that only the creator and lover of everything. Good or bad shows any affection towards me. I want to soar with the clouds and be loved, not crawl against the grain and be spurned by everyone but Our Lord.
I've been keeping a real journal for a while now. An ancient leather journal my brother left me. I call it my Book of Days. Everyday I see something new, something magnificent, and I like it.
Hopefully, I'll post tomorrow. Blessed Be everyone who reads this.
- Location:My desk
- Mood:
rejuvenated - Music:Only Time-Enya
I Have only one more day of school left. AHHHHHHHH I can smell the freedom. Although I will miss al my friends terribly. Like Bailey shes fun to hang out with. We have barely known each other yet we're attached at the hip. We always make up stuff for fun. Shes so random though that it's scary.
- Location:Desk
- Mood:
bored - Music:Killing Loneliness-H.I.M
On the way to the room
A night to be proud
No more gloom
In the morning you were gone
You lied
Was this affair a con
I knew I had tried
This Beautiful Lie
Isnt so special anymore
I wondered how you would die
But then I realized that is God's Chore
- Location:Desk
- Mood:
artistic - Music:When Dreams Fall Apart-Alyson Avenue
Of a dying sea
As they left
They left me be
Please forgive me for you sorrow
For leaveing you in fear
It burns down to the marrow
Are you still here
Please I can't be left behind
I'm lost in the rain
Who knows what we'll find
Broken and Shattered in our pain
I'm torn between
My love
It was ripped apart at the seam
it was as pure as the life of a dove
- Location:Desk
- Mood: artistic
- Music:Hand Of Sorrow-Within Temptation
I Tried to kill the pain
But I only brought more
So much more
Forgive me my sins
Will they, Can they be justified
I think not
Am I too Lost My lord
Take me into your arms
please no more sorrow
I lay here pouring regret
Please dont let me die
Forgive me
Am I Too Lost my lord
Take me into your arms
Please No more sorrow
My light fades
As I'm left waiting for my execution
Tell them to stop
GOD SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!
Am I Too Lost My Lord
Take Me Into Your Arms
Please No More Sorrow
I Walk to the golden gates
My eyes fixed upon your glory
The darkness tried to ensnare me
But it is repelled
Chours X2
Amen
- Location:Closet
- Mood:
happy - Music:Tourniquet-Evanescence
I ran and I ran
But it wasnt enough
I tuned down the alley
I heard a evil, laugh as I fell to the ground
A woman with flaming red hair walked up
Her eyes bright crimson with hunger
I cried out as she bit into my neck
"Please" I screamed
She laughed into the wound and drank my blood
She left me then
I was battered and broken
I was dying
I tried to pull myself away from the scene
But I couldnt move
I was paralyzed
A woman came to me then
"Who did this" She asked
"Darkness Given Hunger" Was all I answered before God took me home.
- Location:Desk
- Mood:
bitchy - Music:Hero/Heroine-Boys Like girls
- Location:desk
- Mood:
dorky - Music:Bleeding Love-Leona Lewis
Okay soooo I weas just walking down the street when a Monster bed spread attacked. I flipped out of the way like a ninja monkey and whelled over to the quilt of death. I slashed at it with my katana. But was repeled by its feathery softness. I Cut in half in one last blow. And I ran screaming down the street. More quilts attacked and I ran into my house to hind. I am currently under my bed cowering in fear, I write this in hope that I make it threw the night.
- Location:Closet
- Mood:
crazy - Music:Forgiven-Within Temptation
I feel a darkness in mt life its here and its now and i need your help to overcome it I dont know what exactly it is though i feel like im empty like theres nothing worth living for anymore now i know its not true but i have my doubts My life is falling apart but so far ive known this and have tried to pull it back together and so gar its being help together with a few band-aids and some glue, I feel so empty like my soul isnt with me anymore like im under a raincloud and it wont stop pouring maybe its just my body changeing but i need help im stressed aswell and that never helps Im dont know what im supposed to do with my life i have NO idea how im going to pay for college in a few years and im going into high scholl and that REALLY scares me i need your love and guideing hand right now god please keep your arm over my shoulder and your hand over my mouth Amen
- Location:Desk
- Mood:
complacent - Music:Diary of Jane-Breaking benjamin
- Location:Desk
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:Realized-Colbie Caliatt
The clouds toss and turn
It tears me apart
That I must let this go
The raindrops tell a story as they fall
A story of wandering and power
The story of the pale rain in your heart
It's never-fading
It's never-ending
Everything will slip away
Shattered pieices will remain
The forest blooms from it's touch
the earth strengthens
Our lives fall apart
The raindrops tell a story as they fall
A story of wandering and power
The story of Pale rain your heart
Pale rain
Pale rain
Pale rain
redeem me from the cage Im trapped
Save me
- Location:Closet
- Mood:
depressed - Music:Our solemn hour-within temptation
- Location:Desk
- Mood:
drained - Music:cloud nine-Evanescence
- Location:desk
- Mood:
anxious - Music:The Heart Of Everything-Within Temptation
- Location:Closet
- Mood:
lonely - Music:Poison-Tarja Turunen
"All in a day's work" Bella swan
"You dont own anything like this for crying out loud you only own one skirt!!!" Alice Cullen
"I'll kill her" Edward Cullen
"Jasper's gonna win the bet" Rosalie Cullen
"Fall Again Bella" Emmet Cullen
"I wasnt going to sugest it" Jasper Cullen
- Location:Closet
- Mood:
calm - Music:Frozen
As I watched you walk out my door
I cried to god for strength
Why would you leave me
(Chorus)
Only time can tell this tale
As it slipped away
Shattered Pieces will remain
On a Bed or Silver roses
You left me
To face the evil of reality
Is your heart of stone and ice
For this is my solemn hour
Chorus
The darkness of life
The purity of death'
Has you bound in its chains
Like a wasp in the web of thw widow
Chorus X2
The silver roses
Have floated away on the tides of existance
You are gone forever
My love, My life, My silver rose.
- Location:Closet
- Mood: artistic
Profile
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif)
lord_withrow- lord_withrow
Syndicate
